What transpires internally when someone hurts you
     Do you scamper and hide, or stand up against it
     Does a fiery anger begin to ignite something within
     Erratically displayed, or tucked unwilling to admit

     Withdrawing, it's emotionally safe within my world
     As I strategically create solid walls around my heart
     No one can attack me in the confines of my safe haven
     I'm now psychologically imprisoned, unable to depart

     I recklessly squash down those angry feelings that arise
     Much like an airport with baggage stacked in a pile
     My heart & mind crammed to the capacity of anxiety
     Then all physical systems black out, displacing the smile

     Hiding behind these walls poisons me while hurting others
     For obscured anger is rich soil allowing anything to grow
     Roots of bitterness clawing through internal mechanisms
     With flowering bushes of resentment sucking joy from below

     Implanted thoughts to water these plants with alcohol
     I only acquire an idol replacing my only true Savior
     When the pleasant euphoria wears off, the walls still exist
     Plants growing deeper demonstrated by shocking behavior

     Perpetual clouds start to emerge preventing clear vision
     Critical words of attack verbalized, utilizing no discretion
     Ultimately Satan quickly surrounds me before pouncing
     Bringing on notions of utter weakness with depression

     Feeling like a society outcast, judged by others harshly
     Only adds to the cold pain, thickening the hardened bars
     Until a hand is reached out, pulling me up from the slime
     Healing begins a process, leaving behind emotional scars

     "Your faith has healed you" is repeated within the Bible
     The Word of God eliminates bondage that cause disarray
     Busting loose by verbally communicating and confessing
     Yet we always self destruct before doing it God's way


      - David E. Hanten -

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³⁰ And do not bring sorrow to God's Holy Spirit by the way you live. Remember, he is the one who identified you as his own, guaranteeing that you will be saved on the day of redemption. ³¹ Get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words, and slander, as well as all types of malicious behavior. ³² Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you.
Ephesians 4:30-32 (New Living Translation)

The person who courts sin, marries trouble; build a wall, invite a burglar.
Proverbs 17:19 (The Message)